Sunday, July 21, 2013

Making Positive Changes and Matters of the Heart

Writing the "Friends and Family Kinda Suck..." post really helped.  My head is clearer and I can move on to other things...

I have been thinking about making a HUGE career change.  I have been seriously thinking about scientific sales.  I like science and I like that I wouldn't be behind a desk all day.  There is potential to make a great living.  I could accelerate my financial goals, which would be GREAT.

I also realize that sales can be demanding, and I have to start taking better care of my emotional right now on order to withstand the pressure.

I have also been thinking about grad school.  I had a failed attempt a long time ago that really lowered my intellectual confidence.  Yet, I still yearn to have advanced degrees.  I thought that I had suppressed this desire, but it keeps coming up to surface.  I need to talk to God about the things that I really desire in my heart.  I hope that I can have them.

Even though Friday and Sunday were tough, Saturday was good.  I was able to map some things out regarding my goals.  I think that I will draft a 2 year plan and start making progress, even if it is small, each day.  When I talk about the things that I want in my life, I can feel a positive internal shift in my body.  I feel like a butterfly crawling out a cocoon.  It is such an awesome feeling, like I am finally reconnecting with the college version of me before the depression hit.  I feel optimistic, like good things are possible.  What an awesome feeling.

I started reading the book I bought for my Kindle app because I like the author and the Kindle edition was only $1.11.  It is titled "How to Be Happy Where You Are: Finding Fulfillment".  This book helped me to recognize my longing to complete a graduate program only by the 2nd chapter!   Very engaging and well written.  I think that I will go and read at least some of it now.  I hope that I will continue to gain clarity from it.

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