I am really emotional and it still seems like I am having a tough time with self-sabotage. There seems to be a big disconnect between where I am and where I want to be. Sometimes, I begin to think that maybe I can't attain my big dreams, but I can't entertain those thoughts. I do have to take a look and see why I am not moving forward.
I finally got a paycheck! It wasn't a lot, but it has definitely helped. My brother loaned me about $200 which helped TREMENDOUSLY. I didn't have to take out a payday loan after all. (Plus I had some "complications" getting one. I have GOT to work on my finances!) There was a lot of drama with getting that check cashed but I was finally able to do it!
Brainstorming about what to accomplish this week:
*Medications
*Job hunting and applying
*Cleaning my apartment
*Refreshing myself/rest/rejuvenation
*Spending time with friends and family
*Start working on my business relaunch
*Contact creditors
*Pay bills
*Laundry
*Maybe a movie by myself
*Work on life vision (ideal life)
*Meanwhile plan
*Cook healthy meals
*Get distilled water for my CPAP
*Create a tentative spending plan
I am sleepwalking through my life and I have lost so much of it already. I need to grab the bull by the horns and do what I can to steer my life the way I want it to go. I know that I am always tired, so I need to take care of that because it affects pretty much everything else. I also have to work on getting some meds back into my system. My sister told me not to make things harder than they have to be and that is what I am doing by not taking advantage of the pharmaceutical help that is available to me. I guess I will go and map out a plan to get these things done.
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