Feeling Blue Part II

As I posted earlier tonight, I feel blue. I feel lonely, but I really don't want to be around anyone or even talk to anyone. I am starting to be discouraged again about my present state (lonely, fat, not attractive, not particularly good at anything, kind of a failure, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay behind financially, just stuck and not really able to do anything, not really employed). I haven't heard anything about a job and I think that has me down too. There are a lot of things that I need to do and want to do, but I just don't have the money right now. I feel like my life is on hold and that is a hard place to be.

I would like to become attractive. Feeling unattractive really impacts my self-esteem. I would like to clear up my skin, get my teeth fixed, lose weight, get rid of unwanted hair, and style the hair that I want to keep! Any one of these would help me to feel better but to do all of them? I would be on top of the world!

As far as a job goes, I really want to have my own business. I read about a woman in Canada with SA who has her own business. It was really inspiring. I really hope that I can do that, too. First, though, I have to get a job! My credit is shot, so I will have to fund everything myself. I hope that I will be successful.

I feel a little bit better, a little bit more hopeful after writing about my desires. When I feel really good, I might blog about how I can help others.