Friday, December 28, 2012
Employment "Challenge"
I was talking to a friend today and I may have stumbled upon new insight regarding my coping skills. Although I am optimistic about my future, I have many challenges to overcome. My primary challenge right now is being/remaining employed. I told my friend that there were signs that I was starting to go downhill but I chose not to look at them because I didn't want to believe that I was starting to falter. Only when there was dysfunction that affected my employment did I start to open my eyes to my life not working. I mean, I am living in a trash heap. That should have been a big clue. I also began missing deadlines and developing a sense of apathy. It seems like working a 9 to 5 is challenging for me. It requires consistency and emotional strength that is harder for me to sustain than it is for most others. I don't have it all figured out yet, but I think this could lead to better recognition of a downward spiral before it hits too hard.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Pitiful or Powerful?
Wow! It has almost been two years since I have posted anything here!
I feel like I am at a crossroads in my life. I heard a woman say that you can be pitiful or you can be powerful, but you can't be both. I believe that I am stable enough to choose the powerful route. I am tired of living small and limiting myself based on my diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder. I have to act on my (modified) dreams and make them a reality. I am undertaking a Transformation Challenge. (Nothing formal, I am making this up as I go along.) I desire change in the following areas: faith, fitness, finances, relationships, and housekeeping. I just realized that I can blog during my transformation! That will help keep me accountable. In future posts, I will break down the areas and give progress reports, at specific points in my journey.
It's good to be back! Take care of yourself!
I feel like I am at a crossroads in my life. I heard a woman say that you can be pitiful or you can be powerful, but you can't be both. I believe that I am stable enough to choose the powerful route. I am tired of living small and limiting myself based on my diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder. I have to act on my (modified) dreams and make them a reality. I am undertaking a Transformation Challenge. (Nothing formal, I am making this up as I go along.) I desire change in the following areas: faith, fitness, finances, relationships, and housekeeping. I just realized that I can blog during my transformation! That will help keep me accountable. In future posts, I will break down the areas and give progress reports, at specific points in my journey.
It's good to be back! Take care of yourself!
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